I've been stucked at home, feeling sick and ugly. I've been having chicken pox! The ugly dotty chicken pox!
After approximately 7 days of feeling sick, finally today I could have my tastbud back, and ahhh... how so grateful I am to have my tastbud back! Last night I had pizza and I actually enjoyed it! Unlike the previous days when even my favourite drink, BubbleTea, tasted disgusting. Everything was making me sick. Everything tasted disgusting. Thank God for taking away my nausea, thank God for taking away my fever. All I have left now is the still-contagious red dots all over my face and body.
I am writing because for so long.... I havent written. It feels like years since I last wrote. I've had a few inspirations, a few ideas, a few paragraphs in my head, but just never really made it to my blog. Why? Because I just don't feel like it. Because I just simply don't feel like writing.
So why am I writing now?
Well, I've prayed and prayed and prayed for days for God to heal me and to make me feel better, and today, He took away my fever, my nausea, and gave me back this 'healthy' feeling again, and I think I owe Him one. No, that's wrong... even before He healed me, I already owed Him. I owed Him heaps for everything He's done for me.
Anyways... I've been thinking ... when God ask me to do something... I gave Him a lot of excuses, such as "I can't be bothered", or "I need to plan for this or that"... , or "I need to bake".
But when we ask God to do something for us, He is never too busy, despite of the billions and billions of other prayers, urgent prayers He needs to attend to. So that makes me feel so guilty, but at the same time, so glad and grateful that I have a father in heaven, who's just so forever stable and reliable.
Not once will he say "I can't be bothered".
Not once will he say "I'm busy".
Not once will he say "I need to look after your sister (or friend, or neighbour) first".
Not once will he say "I need to attend that meeting".
Not once will he say "No I can't listen to you"
Not once.....
Tonight... I am simply grateful that God doesn't move according to His 'feelings' or emotions, or move when he feels like it.
Tonight... I am simply grateful that He will always be God, my Father, who will forever and ever loves me, no matter what.
Tonight... I am simply grateful that He is faithful.
Tonight... I am simply grateful that "neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38)
