I'm sorry...

Being a follower of Jesus is not that easy. Following the words of God and the standard of His holiness is definitely not easy. Sometimes we need to make a lot of sacrifices and deny the desires of our flesh in order to live a life that's pleasing to God.

I've made the decision to live right for God. To live according to His words, pleasing to His eyes. I have had to make that decision again and again, over 100 times in the past 30 years, just because I kept falling into the trap of sin, the trap of the devil. But I'm glad I keep making that decision again and again, because success is getting up again after a fall, and not giving up and giving in to the sinful desires of our flesh.

Sometimes that decision involves others. Those who might be close to our hearts. Those whom to a certain extent, have been there for us. Those who understood what we went through, the thick and thin. But often, it could be those who are also our 'partners in crime'.

The decision to leave our old lives, to close a chapter of our lives, and to start all over again, often involves leaving others and hurting others. But it's give and take. What are you willing to give up in order to gain a bigger and greater purpose of life? What are you willing to give up to experience the extraordinary life God's planned for you before the earth begins? What are you willing to give up for rewards which we can enjoy for eternity?

Sometimes this decision may offend others. They may accuse us of being snobbish and arrogant, or 'too religious' or 'too good' for them. I can only understand where they're coming from, but it's not going to change my decision to leave my old life behind and start a new chapter. Although it means leaving them behind... in the old chapter.

I am not created to please people. I am not created to please myself. I am created for a bigger and greater purpose for His kingdom. I am not ashamed of the gospel, because I don't want Christ to be ashamed of me. So if I have offended and hurt others, I am trully sorry. But I think one day the time will come, when you encounter the almighty God who then change your heart and give you the passion of His heart. Then one day you'll understand some of my decisions.

1 John 1

Walk in the Light

 ⁵This, in essence, is the message we heard from Christ and are passing on to you: God is light, pure light; there's not a trace of darkness in him.

 ^6-7If we claim that we experience a shared life with him and continue to stumble around in the dark, we're obviously lying through our teeth—we're not living what we claim. But if we walk in the light, God himself being the light, we also experience a shared life with one another, as the sacrificed blood of Jesus, God's Son, purges all our sin.

 ^8-10If we claim that we're free of sin, we're only fooling ourselves. A claim like that is errant nonsense. On the other hand, if we admit our sins—make a clean breast of them—he won't let us down; he'll be true to himself. He'll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing. If we claim that we've never sinned, we out-and-out contradict God—make a liar out of him. A claim like that only shows off our ignorance of God.